this year, my resolutions are simple; to be happy, and to be kinder to the world around me. these goals are also a part of my resolutions, but even if i only achieve a few of them, my main goals are to be happy, and to be kind. — every day i would like to write down at least one good thing that hapened that day, and look over all of them at the end of the year — i would also like to...
my first letter of the new year another year, another day, another moment that your not here with me i suppose its getting easier, though i miss you and think about you at least once every day i was thinking about how i never really photographed you much how you never liked photographs it makes me sad, because now, i wish i had forced you to take more or maybe been a little sneakier when i was...
I’d woken up early, and I took a long time getting ready to exist.– Fernando Pessoa, The Book of Disquiet (via weaverofstars)
dear Dollie, (stitch, glue, bind, sew)
i’ve been making all my christmas presents staying up late pricking my hands with needles there are only a few that will be getting presents this year, and almost everything is handcrafted but i stay up all night creating these things for the people i love wrapping them up and making them beautiful i can’t wait to see everyone’s smile when they open them I can’t wait for...
i miss you a lot i hope your warm i hope your safe i miss you be safe i still throw whispers out of my window and night hoping that they may reach you by the morning
long live the king
you flatter me you always have you always will i wish i wasnt the way i am i wish i wasnt so afraid of everything i wach the moon at night and wonder im always wondering… that is my curse now im always wondering… but even now, my words are floating behind you they’ll keep you safe be strong, be brave your better than you think you are, your more amazing than you could ever...
so many things
keeping me up all night shuffling across my brain you’ve made dreaming impossible
and its usually when ive been perfectly fine that i’ll feel my skin cracking from the inside out and i can feel my heartbeat in my throat and my eyes glaze over with tears that were never shed its in my moments when ive finally found peace that i start to crack all over again its now that i realize how lonely i am and how much ive lost myself along the way im nothing but a pile of ashes,...
Another big problem — I’m surrounded by memories of you… in my apartment, on the street, that little Moroccan resturaunt we ran into when it started ouring rain on us and you kissed me over the cous cous. (Rookie tactical mistake not to have a memory-free enviornment. Why did we hang out in so many places?) Anyhow, I’m not holding out hope that you’re going to change...
is comfort in silence in the clicking of needles in the sound of breath the celing fan spins and spins and i lose track of time the sunlight slips away and i’ve been here stitching away alone and for once, im not saddened by my lonliness for once, im content with being alone there’s a piece that i have forgotten for a long time a piece of myself that was buried under my fears of...
crooning from the microphone i could take their breath away i wonder if i’ll ever have the chance to sing the blues since i’ve caught the blues and i’ll never shake them out of my bones
i've been listening
to anita baker whitney houston stevie wonder billie holiday etta james all your favorites, i’ve enveloped myself in their music in the love, in the heartache, in the pain, in the sorrow, in the joy i remember when you told me how music that makes you cry reaches in to your heart and settles, clinging to the heartstrings, arranging your own song, no matter how bitter sweet the melody becomes...
Only people who are capable of loving strongly can also suffer great sorrow, but...– Leo Tolstoy (via myquotelibrary)
restless && wondering
im so restless my mind is always racing the images of the past bombard me every moment i have peace, and then it’s stripped away it’s terrible i hate being this way i wish i could shut it all off just for a little while just for an hour i want to shut off all the heartache erase all the memories forget about feelings i dont want to think about failure or lost lovers or pain and...
so you know how you used to tell me to pay attention? that i get too excited about something, and i end up forgetting things in the process? so today, i got all excited about making friendship bracelets for some of my friends. i brought embroidery thread safety pins buttons tape extra sewing thread needles and in my excitement, guess what i forgot to bring? the fucking scissors. i know this is...